That sweet innocent smile...

It was a drizzly evening and i was heading back home after the office hours.As usual i was in hurry to rush home and this habit had grown stronger by time since the days i was a school lad.In those days too i used to drift out of the school on my bicycle before anyone could take his step out of the gate and that was kind of proud incident to be boast about in school grapevine next day.But now it's not a thing to brag about anymore but that habit of fleeing out of the gate before anyone else still persists impulsively.

So under the influence of this instinctive habit i was the first one to be out of my office and was driving back home.I was at the lights and a girl,9-10 yrs old, halted near to the left bumper of my car on her bicycle. The bicycle looked like a junkyard residual. The body of the cycle was multicolored...black carrier,red corroded chassis,old worn out tyres,rusty rims... overall the bicycle was flaunting a sturdy look. The girl on it had two thin roughly prepared ponytails and was wearing a sloppy white suit with small flowers printed all over it.

By the time i was observing her, the lights went green.I and that girl,both had to turn left and the girl had to take a right again just at the next lights which were 40-50 meters away. So when i was taking to the left the girl tried to paddle the bicycle from my left front to the right so that she could get beside the divider and could easily take the next right turn which was few meters away. Her speed was obviously slow and i was as usual in hurry and when she was trying to cross my car from the front i honked twice(pressure horns installed in my car are so loud and scary that they can bring your soul and body apart leaving both looking at each other for a second) and she was kind of frightened and tried to slip aside from front of my car as hastily she could.It was sure that her heart might have been pounding at that rate of trillion beats a minute at that time.

Now she was at my right and i was overtaking her and looking at her face to see if she was really scared which i didn't intend to.I was looking into her eyes but she wasn't looking at me.Her head was straight and she just tilted her eyes my side to get a sneak peak of me but without making eye contact,she was just trying to find if i was looking at her or not. May be she was scared of me and was expecting that my stern look would be waiting for her and may be i was going to squall at her.I could clearly see the fear in that little kid's eyes. Her recently red turned pale face was clearly depicting that i scared hell out of her. Though i was ferocious before but her little innocent daunted face expressions made me regret my deed. As her panic-stricken eyes were moving up slowly and gathering guts to look into my eyes.I put a smile on my face realizing that i don't have any right to scare such a sweet kid.

As she looked at my face my smile made all her worries go volatile and disappear into the air.She gave me very cute smile which i had never sensed before on any face.Her glory was on cloud 9 as she had just realized that she was not guilty and no one is going to scream at her. The little heart might have been beating again at the normal speed with all felicity inside.

Eventually i too was feeling happy somewhere in the core as i'd put a smile on someone's face instead of yelling something wrong and hurting a sweet little heart.That day was worth a countable day of my life and i can never forget that moment and that impeccant smile ever....

Special.

Happy Thursday friends.
I know you must be cogitating what is so happy and special about this Thursday. Well before this Thursday i've met 3 other,so called happy days that were named : Happy Rose day,Happy Propose day n Happy Chocolate day etc.I don't think there was something special about these days even 'coz i can do all the things on this Thursday what people did in these special days . So why treating these days special ?? I can propose someone, i can gift a chocolate(better eat it myself) or i can give rose to anyone i want even today.

Actually it's a human psychology to start something with an excuse, like":Okay today is Rose day,so i today is the time to present a rose to him/her." W.T.Efff... Why do you need some special day for everything.

People resolute to do something good or to meliorate themselve on this New Year. But Why New Year only ?? Why don't they think that, like new year , the very next minute is a new too. Why not start all this from next new minute.

Whatever the time God has indued us with, is solely ours. Then why we wait for specific days to do something special. Start right now whatever special you've planned to do.Be spontaneous.Every moment is special,waiting for some special day will upshot in wasting time only.
Cheers !!

'Dhobi Ghat' : An inference....

I hadn't seen a single movie in last one month. One of my friend, who was back in the city after a long, called me up to ask about watching 'Dhobi Ghat'. I said 'Yes' without giving a second thought 'coz i too was planning to watch this movie.So finally we landed up in the theater and got the tickets just half hour before the show.
         I had heard about the movie that it's completely art movie and had mixed reviews from all around. I wanted to watch the movie to see what exactly the movie was all about indeed.What's the hype factor,was it the story or was it only 'The Aamir Khan'.
        Before movie began,we were regularly tortured for 10 minutes by a Verbal Note "There is no interval in the movie,kindly carry your snacks/drinks before the beginning". Screw it man,everyone heard it the very first time, now shut the f*#k up.
        Finally the movie started,it had a very artistic touch since it's beginning.The camera positions,the flow,the direction.One thing i found in the movie was it wasn't carrying exaggerated glamor or say not even equal to normal which is the Numero-uno ingredient of the movies these days. As the script moved ahead, i was looking for a meaty story in the movie.Actually i was unable to figure out the object of the story, it was an aimless script for me for the first half hour.I was rendering a new kinda story at every significant turn of the script.I virtually woven tens of climaxes for the story before it finished.But in the end all those climaxes of my parallel mind were thrashed.
        This story comprised of 4 character Arun,Munna,Shai and Yasmin.The script was tightly woven around the issue of 'Sorrows and Felicity in Life due to Relations'.All the 4 characters were interrelated to each other in the same sense. All of them were seeking a special person,a special relation and hence the Happiness in their Life.
        Arun was a painter and a divorced man,means,for certain not happy with the relation with her wife.He found a perfect woman in Yasmin according to his intellect. So he portrays her in his mind as her true companion and carves it on the canvas as the best Art of his life.Hence induces a Virtual relation with her and achieves happiness.
       Shai, who was seeking a simple,though rarefied , relationship with Arun . But she finally realized that someone else(Munna) was loving him from the core of his heart and it's not Arun,who casually ignores any kind of relationship with her.Hence she understood the real meaning of a relationship in the form of Munna and she finally ignores Arun by tearing apart the address of him which she was recently seeking.
Hence understanding of relationship and happiness is achieved by her.
       Munna was topping around Shai, and was seeking a sensual relationship with her.But in the End he realized that Shai really likes Arun and she has no place for him in that part of her heart.He accepts this truth and achieves a state of mind that accepts Shai only as a friend and nothing else.Hence he evades unnecessary brainstorming and achieves peace of mind and Happiness.
      Yasmin, the Virtual Character in the movie was a newly married girl shifted to mumbai recently,who seeks a true,responsive and loyal relationship from her husband,is actually deceived by him.She captures her each and every feeling in Video tapes and wanted to share them with her brother.But she never/couldn't delivered to him.Suddenly one day she came to know that her husband was keeping her in the dark and he had relation with some other woman.She felt ditched in the relationship.She committed suicide and embraces death.She felt honored to die respectfully rather living such a miserable and disgusted life with no relationship.
      So finally i found this movie an epitome of sweet and bitter tastes of relationship issues and their affects on us.It's about how relations affect our Life.And how the better understanding about the relations can make our life worth living and happy. The ability of Perception is the prime apparatus of our personality to judge people and their feelings about us.Somewhere a part of Congnitive Psychology.

       This was the inference of the movie according to my Notion.
       Well i would say Hats off to 'Kiran Rao' who wrote such an awesome script and then Directed the whole script in such a beautiful and abstract way. 'Aamir Khan' was always my favourite now 'Kiran Rao' is in the list too.

'Compassion'

It was a shivery night of the first week of december and the time was around 10:00 pm. I was sitting in my room,engulfed in blanket and preparing for my exam next day.I was bit tensed about the syllabus and was cursing myself for not being prepared for the exam.But it was not my fault completely 'coz it was hard to prepare for exams after the office timings as i barely get time for anything except gym.Though i sacrificed my gym regime for the exams for complete 2 weeks,but that time wasn't enough to make up in all subjects,so this was the reason of vexation. Along with that i was continuously being humiliated by a dog who was groaning outside from last 1 hour. I don't know what was his problem but he was acting as a matter of fuss at that time.The incomplete syllabus and on top of that perturbation caused by the dog.Intermittently i was thinking that dog might be groaning due to the cold but i was opposing this inner appeal with the alternate thought that dogs are naturally furred enough to save themselves from cold.Many times it came into my mind that i should go and look out what's the problem with him,but the intense cold and thought of wastage of time(every second was worthful at that time) was stopping me from doing this.
             But ultimately my patience refused to respond further and level of irritation raised beyond the danger level.I decided that i would provide him with some unused jute cloth available in my store room to make a cozy bed for him to lay down,may be that would make him silent for the rest of the night. Well first i rushed to balcony and tried to detect the location of that dog where was he actually. Though street-lights were ON,but the Flora in the region was restricting my visibility.But i had a rough guess about the dog's position from the direction of his cries. Suddenly i had a glance of him , he was in the enclosed parking area in front of the flats down the street. He was running to and fro and pushing each gate with his fore leg.I don't know how but he was stuck in that parking area.I was certain that he wanna come out of that temporary jail.
            Suddenly,my mind reacted lightening fast and i recalled that there was a bitch that had given birth to some puppies just behind our backyard wall. "OH GOSH !! She may b that bitch", i uttered.
           I ran down the street and as i got closer i saw that she was really the same bitch.She was looking at me,her eyes were filled with curiosity and hope.It was clear from her ungratified movements that she was urging to rush her children as soon as possible becoz they must be alone and hungry.
           Now i came to know why she was continuously groaning,crying and screaming.I was able to understand her agony.Without giving a second thought i unlocked the door of the parking gate and opened it for her and she ran dementedly like someone runs to save his/her own life.Actually those puppies were more than life to her.
           This incident made me think that for God each creature is like his own tot 'coz there's one thing he has gifted everyone with and that is 'Compassion'.I was looking at her,while these thoughts were actuating in my mind,until she disappeared behind the boundary wall of the street and headed towards her children.I was feeling a bit guilty for not reacting to her cries earlier.But nevertheless she was home now.
           I came back to my room and was happy and proud because i made a separated mother to meet her children.This proud feeling,from deep inside me,evaporated my tension for the exam.Though this insouciance didn't last prominently for a long and i was slogging till late night but finally did well in the Exam.
        
 

Zindagi

Tere har pehlu ki kya baat karu
Zindagi tu har baar kuchh naya dikhlati hai,

ik waqt pe to 7va aasmaan chhoo leta hu
ik waqt sharir se rooh nikal jaati hai,

Tere in rasto pe chalna hai mushkil
par namumkin nahi itna bhi tu sikhaati hai,

gham k saaye me palta hoon kabhi
kabhi khushiiyon ki roshni se rubroo karaati hai,

Tu Zindagi hai ya koi baazigar hai
Har baar koi nya kartab le k aati hai,

Kehne ko to har baazi teri hoti hai
par sare khel tu humse karvati hai,

Umr bhar tujhse jitne ki koshish me
baki har mauj pichhe chhoot jati hai,

tujhko haraakar bhi tera sath nahi rehta har dum,
aakhir maut hi humko aakar gale lagaati hai.

A visit to Jalianwala baag....

I congratulate you all on Independence day and along with that i tap my back on starting blogging again. It's been a complete 1 year i've written any blog. Now a fresh and strenuous restart. So wish me luck.

Well 2 days ago i didn't had any special plan for I-Day.But then one day before it,dramatically,i came under a plan to visit Golden temple with my friends.So i decided in my mind that i will also visit Jalianwala baag too.So finally today i was there to visit it. I found Golden Temple more fabulous than i had heard and seen it on TV etc. It was a complete celestial feeling. just Supernal.

Then after hunching at Holy 'Darbaar Sahib' i went to Jalianwala baag. I visited the historical "Martyr's Well". Then i also saw the bullet marks on some walls, those marks were spotlit with the square marks around them.

I was immensely moved by those views. There were also some boards written info on,regarding all the things happened there on 13 april,1919 when lots of innocent people were killed there. i was pretty much normal before that, but after watching all those places and bullet marks on the walls,I was having mixed feeling of bereavement about the martyrs and rage against British Govt. that how can they do this to thousands of innocents like this.

Well i have read all these stories in the books and i already knew about the whole incident, but watching those memorabilias and that whole place,where masssacre took place,with my own eyes was prominently overwhelming my mind.

However i recovered from that petite trauma soon later on.

But while returning home i was having a feel good factor in my mind that i visited such a great place on the Independence day. I was considering my trip as Tribute to thousands of Martyrs who achieved martyrdom for the freedom of their Country. No other venture could have delighted me so much on the I-day.

This felicity inspired me to write about it on my blog and here i am with my thoughts to share it with you. Hope u enjoyed a virtual flyspeck visit to Amritsar. Happy Independence Day to all once again.

Joy of Independence day ....

Yesterday was the 15th august ,dignified day for India. I had planned a week ago to listen to the Independence day speech by PM on TV.But just before the day , i had a night out with friends to uphills and returned home around 5'o clock in the morning and slept till 10:30,obviously missed the Indep. day speech. Anyways, no regrets. I watched movie 'Shaurya' then. It was the climax of the movie going on and suddenly my Mobile rang with message tone. I didn't want to ruin the climax of the movie as it is very influential,so i decided to check the messages later.

The movie finished. Though i've seen this movie 6 times , i was still moved by Kay kay menon's acting . So now i checked my Inbox . 2 SMS's, first was a joke and second was a senti message. what the heck , no Independence day message since morning !!! what has happened to todays youth ... if it were a friendhip day or Valentine day , then surely my inbox must have been flooded by the related messages.

I think People doesn't pay respect to I day. They have took the Indepence granted i think. Otherwise they must have the idea that how much importance does a freedom pays to a country. I still remember the day ,15th aug 1997, when i went on a morning parade on the 50th Independence day with the friends of my elder brother. I even knew at that time that we are doing that to awake people and seggregate the message that its the day we got the Independence , we were liberated after the sacrifice of countless martyrs.It was a tribute to those Martyrs.

I am happy that i was having that slight sense of patriotism in me at that age of 13. and that sense has kept increasing ,never fallen down. I guess today a same Parade is required to awake and aware the people . I know thats not practically possible coz i had missed the time. So i decided to send messages to as many friends i can to rememorate them the Independence day.

After spreading the message to as many frenz as i could , i started recieving messages from my friends in return. I got messages from most of the friends i had sent, and also got the message from others whom i forgot to send. Definitely they had got that message from our mutual friends and had frowarded that.

Ultimately, by the end of the day , i was happy that i had made a little attempt to make the people celebrate the Independence day , though they knew that its the I day. I know just a push was required to burst out their patriotic emotions , coz being patriotic ain't a fashion, so people hesitate to do it first.

Now i had celebrated the Independence day Virtually with my friends and Had the real Joy of Independence day.